Monday, December 31, 2007

so how was your year?

hoorah for my year-ender blog entry! compared to christmas eve, i am spending new year's eve peacefully, with no parties or pahabol shopping to mind. i am currently listening to instrumentals my dad got from my aunt. in fairness, the music adds to that emotional feeling you get as the year comes to a close.

so anyway, i was thinking of a nice and creative of summarizing my 2007. i would LOVE to tell everything that i've been through from january to december, but i figured that would be too boring to read and write anyway. hmmm, i'm not in the mood to write serious-and-straightforward sounding editorials either. never mind if this post be called conyotic. >:)

okay, what is the master plan for the post? still thinking honestly. i think as i write. so before i even get to my point, the words you read are pretty much adlib. ack, terrible.

IDEA! let's start.

THINGS I LEARNED FROM 2007 *praises myself for the good(?) idea*
first let us define learn. to learn means to understand, to discover, to rediscover and to acquire.

*winners don't always get trophies. because i felt really really bitter with losing the RSPC, i forced myself to believe that winning depends on who gets what. and since i didn't get any( and still not getting any), i thought i didn't fit for that kind of field. i badly wanted to be a writer because that was the only skill i thought i could learn to love, but noooo. manuel quezon took it away from me. anyhoo, i learned to let go of that bitterness of losing. although, i still don't have any trophy or a trophy shelf, i plan to get one soon. haha

*apply as much you can in different universities. forget how much you spend on the application forms because believe me, it pays to have different choices. don't mind how hard it would be to have choices, because the good thing is, is that you have choices. i remember how hard it was for me to decide which university to choose because each school has its own pro's and con's. and in the end, i believe i still made the right decision. however, i still daydream what it feels like if i were in up or dlsu. ateneo just doesn't seem to have it all. :-<

*mag hintay ng 5 or more minutes before you get hot water from the dispenser. okay, medyo lang nabobo ako during that time. how should i know water wouldn't be hot as soon as i press the hot water switch? ayun, my cup noodles got wasted because of that. simple lesson i should've learned easily, but didn't. there are more things i learned during college, bot simple and hard lessons. the simple ones are the identification and classification of leaves and tissues, the harder lessons are those i learn outside school. along katipunan area, in the LRT or in other places around quezon city.

*you don't compare high school with college. sometimes it's very easy to say that 'colleege is like high school, awww' because it never was, never is and never will. i love both and i can't really say which one is better 'cause they're two different things.

*homesickness is a choice. i know, weird. i am a weird person myself. people keep on asking me if i miss my family in batangas or if i wish i was home instead of staying in katipunan alone. it was my choice. i chose to stay because i know i can survive. maybe not sruvive without my family, but survive homesickness. i would be too apathetic to say that i don't miss home because i DO, very much. but i know that i should learn how to live by my own and that's what i chose. if i can survive homesickness, i can conquer many others.

*internet is bad bad bad. but i can't resist : there are nights when my plans of studying are delayed or better yet, abandoned because i couldn't stop myself from using my laptop and surfing the net for senseless stuff or chatting in ym. instead of studying for long tests, i would play online games or stalk people (oops), and before i know it, it's sleeping time already. tsk tsk tsk.

*friends (and lovers) come and go. HAHA, singit lang yun lovers. friends go and still come back. i found it very hard to make new friends now that i'm in college because i can't really tell how i should move or react to something, but thankfully i made good friends. yay. as for the lovers, hmmm. singit lang talaga. pero crushes do come and then after two weeks, they wear off. time to find a new one! hahaha.

*college isn't the best chance to meet somebody. and by somebody, i meant the opposite sex. ehem ehem. strike that 'college is the perfect moment to meet your dream guy'. it would be an understatement to say that college has cute guys in store. the real deal is finding the right one, because it is never easy to find THE guy. besides, when in college, you'd rather focus on getting to the DL rather than hunting for men. (yeah right, i'm lying here haha)

*vulnerability. vulnerability to everything and not just to the opposite sex. vulnerability to new beginnings and new people. i find it very hard to let my guard down for something. i am afraid to be vulnerable only because i don't want to risk my emotions on something. nonetheless, 2007 taught me that i can never keep my walls up. time would come that i have let my hair down and let everything flow on its own.

*it really is just a small world. i don't want to elaborate this so much. HAHA. it would just be too weird. college opened doors for more people to come together and meet others you didn't know was a friend of a friend of a friend. before you know it, each one of us has this invisible string attached to everyone else. cool right?

*projection is the word. i loved this idea so much i'm reiterating it. A likes B but projects this feeling by saying that B likes C when in fact A likes B pala. cool cool noh? i wish it's just projection that could explain this feeling. :(

*hopeless romantics are universal. because whatever school you come from, there is always a hopeless romantic in you and you can never deny it. Yay for the HR's. :D

*learning how to fly never stops.


since i have made a pretty long post already, i figured i would suspend the 'things i want to learn in 2008' part for the next post. ahihihi. 'til next year! and i wish everyone of you a

HAPPY 2008!
... Enjoy the year and live it with love. Big huuuug. :D

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