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More than a month ago, I have been excitedly preparing myself for this year’s prom. I wanted it to be all so perfect. Perfect gown. Perfect shoes. Perfect hair. Perfect body. Nope, erase that, not possible. So I decided to start off very early. Never did I realize that it wouldn’t turn out the way I expected it to be. My last post was a mess. I was a mess during that time. I have been very frustrated, depressed and worried of how my gown turned out. It was simply disastrous. I started to get paranoid that everything else could come out as a wreck. For two days I have been complaining about prom and everything else. Thankfully, after getting my fixed gown, prom seemed to gain a new light. Whew. So even if my gown’s still not as good as I expected, it didn’t stop me from all the excitement you get for prom night. All the dancing, eating, dressing up, and looking your best are the things that makes me get all these butterflies. Psyched!

So there’s one thing missing, a date. I thought having a date would make my last prom memorable. I whined about not having one, and felt bitter when one friend gets asked out. I finally got over that state of depression when I realized, hell, so what if I don’t have a date? That wouldn’t ruin my prom!. So I am officially going date-less. But I managed to snag kenji as my entrance escort. That will be enough.

This is my last prom. I am going to dance as if I just got high. I am going to eat as if I don’t have a weight problem. And I am going to enjoy as if it were my last. Well, it is my last after all.